Girls, there is one long pending testimony from my side. When we were married, I was on the air as I thought I was married to the most wonderful guy in the world. It had been like that until I found some shocking truth about him in just few days.
I started having hurt deep inside of my heart, and I continued to live that way as I didn't want to offend my parent and in-laws. I continuously questioned God asking Him why He allowed the situations I underwent. All whys with no answers. To be frank I didn't want to continue living like this and was always thinking to go back to the life I enjoyed before marriage. Without even writing things in my diary I could easily remember the tough moments with date and time, and the history prevailed for about a year or two. And my hubby was always pinned strongly with my arrogant questions to which he was never prepared to answer at all.
After the initial years, the names and dates and times which I thought I would never forget, God helped erasing those from my strong memory and I no longer feel hurt thinking of those. Instead all I do now is, to think how God led us together through those crucial times and how God transformed both of us through it all.
It was during my second Birthday in my marital life, I got a surprise email from my hubby (with lot of spelling mistakes of course 😜 ) asking for my forgiveness. He was very honest in what he wrote and how he wanted to change. And he indeed changed in many unbelievable ways. I am damn sure it was all because of God. He erased all the hurt, guilt and pain we were going through. Now each passing day, I wonder how much the hurt I had toward my husband turning into love and each passing day I can feel that it only grows. Yes, we are not finished yet; still lot of imperfections, but we are growing together.
Today since I had free time in my hands, and he was not with me during the evening, I read the same long email which he has sent it to me as Birthday gift. My eyes were filled with tears and my heart with thanksgiving. Have you ever told your husband that you love him? I am also not such an extrovert to say all that face to face; but I am good at conveying things in writings.
After 3 years I have responded to his email for the first time telling him how thankful I am to God for giving him as my husband and how I can't be happy with any other guy other than him. Not sure when he would read my reply (I am sure he would have never imagined he would get a response from me), but I am now burden free.
I told him how much the love I have for him grows everyday. If you are one like me, who always puts on a strict face and never likes to tell nice things, try out something new. Tell him how he changes your world. Who knows! Maybe he is waiting to hear it from you. Life is too short to leave this important thing behind. A very late realisation though, yet worth realising it at least now than never.
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