The beginning of my marriage was rocky. When I had my first child I just couldn’t forgive my mil and a lot of things my husband did. I was so bitter and was over whelmed. I was overcome with self pitty and just refused to let things go. I was stewing and hurting and every time God told me to let it go and forgive them, I was like they wronged me I don’t have to just let it go.
Fast forward a few years....
My husband was really trying and making an effort.
After I had my baby girl our second child, I was again hospitalised. I had gall stones and my gall bladder didn’t work. I needed surgery. I was throwing up bitter,green gunk. All the bile that my body was not able to process. And as I was throwing up and we had to keep looking so that my stitches from the c- section just the day before doesn’t pop open. God told me..... Forgive her. Not for her, but for u.
I was filled with so much bitterness that Satan actually was able to allow it to physically manifest in my life.
And in that exact moment all I could muster was I don’t know how but I will submit this to you and obey, if you teach me how to let it go I will move on.
And sure enough God has been faithful in helping us as a family move on.
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