Dec 2021 praises4

When I read this message I wanted to cry. I wasn't going to say anything, because what we experienced was very new and a very sensitive thing. 

But I got up this morning with such a burden to share this. 

The past couple of years GOD has been working on my husband and me. God has been changing us and dealing with us and we have been enjoying immense spiritual growth and immense personal growth. We were able to do amazing ministry in our local church and around our house, soon the church elders started trying to incorporate us into the church leadership. 

One particular person in leadership did not like how I was being prophetic and started attacking us. To the point where some of those in leadership and then those in the congregation turned on us. It was literally like a mob situation. 

And that very same month. The people who were coming for prayer were talking about the affairs their spouse had in church or how the church wronged them. In a couple of months it was almost like I lost my safe space. (That was what I thought church was for me. Betrayed by those I was close with. And then having to try and navigate such information without prejudice.) 

By then COVID also shut down all the churches. I basically just resolved to online church. COVID amplified many domestic situations for so many people and when the church leadership didn't step in THE WAY I THOUGHT THEY HAD TOO,I couldn't accept it.  I stopped counceling people. I just wanted a private Christian life. (As stupid as it sounds now 😬) I just wanted no one to look at or question my relationship with GOD. I couldn't accept "imperfect" people talking about or ridiculing the most precious part of me. My relationship with GOD.  I just had to get over myself and deal with it..... but I didn't know how. I started asking GOD for anonymous ministries. For some time GOD also allowed it because I had to heal. Slowly HE started be deal with us and pruning us and change us and making us mature and teaching us to forgive and oh HE taught me humility! 😀. All people are like me, I had to stop looking at their cracks and learn to look at CHRIST in them be it in leadership or anywhere else.  Be it in church or in a different setting. I had to change my focus. Once I submitted it all completely to GOD and let HIM deal with us the way HE wanted, things changed. The pastor of our church came home one day and we were able to reconcile. GOD heard our prayers and in the midst of the lock down GOD enabled them to come to our house and sort out the issue. They actually came home and apologised (which I didn't expect.) It gave us a sense of closure and a renewed sense of how much as believers we need to do fellowship and stand by each other as the hands and feet of Christ on earth. 

Today we have moved to a new place, go to a new church and I know that this is the start of a new season for us as a family.  

And the local church that we have been planted here at, GOD has placed us here to learn and grow. I am looking forward to all that GOD has in store for us. ❤️😀🥰

I hope I did justice to what I was trying to express. Many of us have   been hurt at church. We either burry that hurt or carry it around. We don't deal with it in CHRIST. When we don't deal with it we become unable to help ourselves much less help others. To expect perfection in church is like expecting healthy people at a hospital. Some times we just need to get over ourselves and our mindsets and GOD can use us to do so much for our children, for so many like us and even for ourselves. Because HE is our strengths we can boast about our weaknesses.