Struggles after quitting job

When I was in last few months of pregnancy, I decided to quit due to work pressure. I quit Infosys in May 2014, thinking of changing my career as a lecturer, as I had completed my M.E. degree before joining Infosys. My in-laws were quite happy about it, as in their family history, nobody worked after having baby. But, my parents’ and my siblings were unhappy about the decision, for all were working. My husband insisted me to stay at home and take care of our baby atleast until he is atleast one year old. I obeyed him and didn’t try for any job till 2015. Later with my husband’s help, I started looking for job in various colleges, but didn’t get any call. In the same year, my husband who is a Civil Engineer lost his job, as there were layoffs, after Mugalivakkam incident. Since his field was down at Chennai, for around 4 months, he didn’t get any job in Chennai. We didn’t have peace at home, as there was a financial crisis. But, God lead us through. I praise God for it. In April 2015, he got a job in Muscat (Oman) with a reasonable pay to lead our life. This was according to God’s will. After, he left to Muscat, I was in Chennai, with my son and in-laws. I became so depressed, for I didn’t have a job and felt so helpless. I could only send applications to colleges through post or e-mail, as I had to take care of my son. I used to cry at night and lament at God’s feet for hours, after making my child sleep. I had pressures from my parents, for I am jobless and idle. Whenever I go to my parents’ place, they started giving me money, as I do not have a job to earn it. This made me still more depressed, and I stopped going to my parent’s place too. In August 2017, by God’s grace, I applied for PhD on the last day for submission of Application. I started studying for the entrance exam. Since, it was around 9 years after completed my M.E degree, it was so very difficult to cope with it. Also, I didn’t have enough support from my in-laws too. Already I started showing my inability and depression to my kid (as my husband is not around), yelling at him, for simple things. One day, when I was in the kitchen, cooking for the day, and there was no one around, I felt so helpless and crying talking to God, about the exam, which seemed to be the only hope for me. When I was crying, Holy Spirit talked to me, in a mild voice that he has this for me and I will get through it. I was so relieved, as I got confirmation from God. He made my husband to come Chennai, on a medical emergency. But he was alright, to our surprise. Though, he was here, I could not study well, as my son was sticking to me. On the day of entrance exam, the exam was very tough; I know the answer for only around 5 questions. But I attended all the questions in prayer. Since, I got the confirmation from God, I was confident that I will get into. To my surprise, especially my Father-in-law (who was against going for a job leaving my child), started praying (in family prayer) for I should get through. Nobody, except me, know about God’s promise. When my results came out, both my in-laws were very happy. I joined college in January 2017 (as a full time Research scholar). Now, my in-laws are taking care of my son, full-time. God has changed all the situations upside down in his right time. Initially, I sometime argue with my MIL, especially. But God has made me to understand their situation better, and submit my way to God. They are sacrificing their personal works for my son and me. And God has helped me to get up early, and complete cooking before I leave to college. Though, it is difficult, during exam time, God has made my MIL to take care of household works for me additionally. I praise God for He has done everything in HIS time. I praise God for them and their health too. Still, my husband is in Muscat. We are praying for God’s will to be done in our life. Thanks for reading through this long testimony!! Praise be to God! Amen!!