In 2014, we got married and came to the United States with a lot of questions and doubts and expectations! And as I did not work in US, I felt lonely and bored at home. Just after few weeks of marriage, one of our friends asked ‘When are you planning to have a baby’ and I just smiled and brushed away their question, but my husband told ‘At God’s time, and he is in control’. They thought that we were just giving a lame answer and we did not want to share what we were planning to them. But we actually surrendered it to God beforehand.
Anyhow this question made me more concerned especially because I had irregular periods, so I prayed the very next day for an answer from God, ‘Lord, what is Your plan for our lives’. By the end of that day I heard this from God ‘I’m planning your life’. I was thrilled and happy and great peace filled my heart, and I still could remember how happy I was that whole day and I told my husband that God is planning our life.
Days, months, years passed by, but nothing really changed, it was just the same and I did not become pregnant which made our hearts faint. Many a times I have questioned, ‘Is God really planning my life ??’. Though there was a strong promise from the Lord Jesus Christ, which encouraged me time and again, there were also days when we were so broken and discouraged. God invested this time to bring me closer to him everyday. Also God by His immense grace used that time to talk to me and reveal a lot of things. It was life changing and life transforming for me. I heard God’s voice clearly than any other time in my life. 2.5 years passed by after marriage, and one day I had a vision in which God said that my wait is over. I was very happy and was expecting a positive pregnancy test, but God had a different plan. I had applied for a particular course to study and in which I got an admit within 2 days after this vision. I was not really focused on pursuing my masters, but God wanted me to take that route. Then God helped me to complete my masters successfully and get a job.
4 years passed by, my heart was weak. At this point of time it was very difficult to claim God’s promises and pray and we were getting tired. Again God spoke with His Word ‘Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own insight and understanding’. I was very weak to pray a long prayer but kept reciting this verse again and again saying Lord I trust in you and I do not want to lean on my own understanding and nothing more than that. By the grace of God I was conceived that very same month without any treatment or problem and delivered a baby girl by the end of 2018. God’s words is active and alive always, even after 4 years of waiting he did what he planned for us and even now, He is working and even our future He is holding. We thank God for His faithfulness and grace and love towards our family, All praise and glory belongs to the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords.
Many friends who studied with me said that you have planned really well, you studied, then got a job, and then became pregnant! But it is actually God who planned our life. Thank you Jesus !!!
Three things I realized during my waiting time:
• I was too busy(studies, work, worldly things) to seek God before marriage, even though I read bible so many times and prayed, I did not spent enough time meditating God’s word. But God graciously pulled me out of the business of this world and made me realize that He is God and helped me know him more. My husband was greatly helpful and encouraged me to seek God more in all ways
• I was too focussed in my job when I was working, and started putting my trust in my work. So God pulled me back from my work and made me trust in Him
• Now I realize after having a baby life becomes busy, if we had a baby immediately after marriage, I wouldn’t have had that beautiful time spent with Jesus meditating His word
God’s plan are always higher that our plans. God is never too early, never too late, but He is always on time! Jesus never fails!
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.
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