Recently I had to remove my wisdom tooth.. already I was scared to go alone for the minor surgery.. added to that when I entered the hospital in HCl under insurance claim..the reception guy said I had to pay extra amount , added some extra comments to increase my fear saying everything is very costly here etc. etc. and then vanished to some other doctor's room , meanwhile confused a nurse as well.. I was waiting patiently for more than 45 mins for someone to call me for the surgery.. at last lost my patience and walked and started questioning the doctor in his room ..may I know "what is happening?" He was like I also don't know..then he called few other people and settled the confusion that i need not pay extra amount... Now I was really confused should I take up the surgery or not amidst so much confusion.. but was holding onto God along with fear and questions....God knew my weakness .. suddenly doctor himself called me , then asked me sorry for making me wait..now I became little relaxed for his politeness..when I went in ... All set for surgery..I asked the doctor that it is very simple surgery right ..he said No and added that it may end up in complications etc etc...again I started shivering ...no choice but rather go ahead.. doctor was so kind ..he told don't fear that we will stop in-between as well and do another day if you want.. he started speaking so much kind words that I felt OK it's God's favour and totally surrendered still to Him ..and said go ahead..
The doctor removed the wisdom tooth in few seconds.. I was like ...is it really over..the most amazing part I was Very normal from that day night itself.. purely a miracle that I had zero pain and no swelling in my cheeks..All glory to God..felt like sharing for this topic on fear.. although I was a coward full of fear God still made me realize His Hand upon me when the situations were worse..
One more point , whomever I spoke to about wisdom tooth removal prior to my surgery , all shared very painful experiences which were scar to hear 🙃
I realized that "For with God nothing will be impossible". In recent months when I was thrown alone to handle the family .. I many a times felt like God teaching me again and again to come out of my inborn fear and often crying habit in fear which I am known for.. many days I had to (forced to) take decisions without fear ..no choice..no time to sit and cry..but that's how God wanted me to grow in Him I believe..I drove Scotty with my 2 kids on the roads...still God protected each drive..I had so much fear on driving also..but God taught me to totally depend on Him to move forward.. total surrender to Him helped me to run each day by His grace..
Although I don't deserve God's favour and miracles..the more I was helpless, the more I started seeing God's favour in each and every move/ day to day activities in my life.. What an awesome God and a friend we serve...He is our helper in times of fear and loneliness...
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