From uncertainty to absolute certainty

I want to share my testimony. Ours was a commitment arranged by parents. And I was rest assured it was God's will. However uncertainty rose up in my husband's heart after our engagement which gave a struggle filled courtship to us. All that I could tell him was to pray. Only with faith I entered into marriage. But reality strikes hard isn't it. Work turned out to be a very stressful situation making my health fluctuate and our family life was taking a toll.

Every day went with both of us persuading each other to move ahead accepting each other as we are. There were days I found it difficult to make my husband understand the plan of God and not rebel against him in anger wondering why he put us together.

I just held onto God like never before balancing it between work, family. Church and family were scared if I would lose hope that everywhere I went first thing I was asked is how is it going between you two, that constant observation on me to see if am really the right choice for my husband was mentally disturbing me a lot, all that I could do was give a smile and say God is in control.

A year and half in it I conceived, the pregnancy was even more difficult, but as I shared earlier God gave me the word fear not. Tear filled days made my husband realize what we were going through, how spiritual warfare is a part of a Christian life in a marriage and why we had to go through that phase and come back to the Lord. He just told no matter what you are my wife and from now on lets face life together.

Today looking back I can only say if I didnt hold onto God in faith, I would've definitely gone into great depression. I had my close fellowship friends who really uplifted me in times of pain even if they were busy, in prayers and constant motivation from his word. God gave the wisdom to love my husband inspite of the corrections and mistakes he found in me and strengthen both of us to draw close to Him! Today he runs to church and the work of God taking our son early saying he needs to grow in God's love! Only God can turn situations in no time like wondering, did we really suffer like that and smile in peace!!!