how God redeemed my mom, grandma

Testimony FGB

Praise the Lord, Glory to be the name of God alone. I am a first generation believer.  Through the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, I would like to share a great miracle that happened in my life on how the Lord met my mother, saved her life and how the Lord is holding her hand and leading her until this day.

Before the Lord met my mother, the Lord brought lot of changes in me – He made me pray, praying with burden. You all know during Covid time we prayed for souls, prayed for the nation with burden. At this time the Lord taught me lot of things, gave me awareness about the spiritual things and once I remember listening to one song, which had this line – “Must I go and empty handed?”. This line of the song started to work in me deeply, then I prayed to the Lord to give me lot of souls, I do not want to meet You with an empty hand, I need to bring in lot of people when I meet you. The love that saved me from the hellfire need to save the lost people in this country. The Lord put in much burdened on this cause, I know I cannot do this by my strength, I cannot even pray with my strength, but God’s pure grace led me in Journey and He gave me strength and burden to pray.

During this time, one day the Lord gave me the burden to pray for my family because only I was saved, my sister also met the Lord and was being led in the path of salvation, struggled a bit in between and now after my mother is saved, God is working in my sister’s life and brining in changes. No other people in the family are saved.

Each day the Lord increasing the burden to pray for my family with tears, I did not pray for my mother alone, but started to pray for each and every one in my family by name. Sometimes the Lord led me to pray for all of them in a single day, sometimes it was only one person, however the Lord led me I prayed.

In Nov 2022, there was a situation that I had to call my mother to my house to support me. Usually, I used to refrain calling my parents or in-laws to my house. Though they are very helpful, supportive and make me happy when they come, they also follow the Hindu customs like – lighting the lamp, taking my kids to temple and accompany my neighbours to the temple which used to put me down. I used to feel I am already battling my life of faith and over this to add over it. I was wondering if I need to call my mother or not, but situation was so that I had to call her and by God’s grace she came. Even before coming to my house, she was telling she was having some health issues in her right hand side of the face, being a numb unable to feel or taste the food. She had gone to hospitals, she tried to remove her teeth thinking it would be of a tooth problem but nothing worked out.  She thought that she is having some big health issue, and that with this issue she cannot live and she will be ashamed because of this and so on…She was in the point of thought to commit suicide. Because of the all of this her physical health deteriorated and appearance she was very thin and weak.

When she came her, she was in this mind set but I did not know that she had the suicidal thoughts. I normally listen to the “Jebikalam vanga” program. When she came, I thought I will put this program for my mother. While she was watching she was full of tears as the program looked like it meant for her, the prayer, testimony etc. That day itself she felt much better, then she started to share & open things with me that she could relate the testimonies to her as she was going through the same issue.

God gave me the grace to share the truth & spiritual things in the bible and I told her that we will pray tomorrow. During that night (early morning), I was struggling a lot with dark forces troubling me, literally like something is pressing on me and unable to get up. But I believed that the One who is in me is greater than the one in this world and it was so true, God gave me the strength to get up and we(myself & my mother) prayed. We did not pray very long, a short time but prayer was very powerful. After the prayer my mother told that she feels like she is bit better like 25% and she started to have some hope. During her stay, God gave me the grace to share about the Lord to her and clarity her doubts, she also learnt how to pray during this time.

Before she came here, she had met many temple priests, magicians along with the hospital, related to her problem and one of them had asked her to come on a particular day to perform some ritual/formality stating that someone had done something to her and it can be removed on that day. She had just started to believe in Jesus and at the same time she also was thinking of doing what the person in the village had said so that she can get completely cured. She insisted on going back and went. I was a bit upset since she only has started to believe now, and she is going back for such a thing. While she was away, God burdened me a lot to pray for her in tears for her soul. The person in the village had told to bring all the family members during the ritual and my mother forced my sister as well to take part in it. My mother did not even have money to get the things needed for ritual, yet she borrowed money and got it arranged because she was so desperate.

I was very sorrowful of what she was doing but the Holy Spirit comforted me saying that I should not look into the situation/circumstances but to fix my eyes on Him and He is able to deliver her and do might things. Whenever I look at the situation I used to become sorrowful but the moment I look up to Jesus, I used have great peace confirming that God is able to great things, He is able to lift up anyone; I always used to wonder how my family who are not educated at all will understand the truth about Jesus and during prayer I used keep asking Jesus but Jesus during this time gave me answers for all my questions, doubts, challenges, ignorance and lack of knowledge & understanding. God showed me how He used Peter who was uneducated fisherman to minister to the educated jews. God is able to meet any man, lift up any man and use anybody. God was making me strong in this that I should not look into the situation, but my faith should be on Him.  When circumstances & situations are favourable and good, to believe in God is easy but when the circumstances/situations are against us, it is difficult to believe in Jesus. In the midst of this when we believe , he gives us the strength and he gave me His gracious strength to have faith in him fully. 

I have been praying her, while my mother was in the village doing all the rituals when no body in my family was not in favour of it. After doing all this there was no cure to her problem, she became disappointed, didn’t know what to do, where to go and was feeling very low for few days. Really don’t remember how but all happened like a dream and she got saved.

 In those days, my mother herself started on to call on the name of Jesus, she did not know how to pray, how to read the bible. Only thing she knew was to call on the name of Jesus, she kept on calling the name of Jesus, Jesus alone. There is no church in our village but there was one small one beyond 2 or 3 villages where one pastor amma used to come from Tirunelvelli.  My mother some how got to know about this (Only God has shown this to her) and she went there. The only thing I could say is that “ The One who has called her faithful” and Lord himself led her wonderfully from the time He held her hand and she started to go the church regularly.  She was being transformed slowly.  In my village , in January there is temple festivals and my mother used to participate every year in some thing or the other like “Ayiram koda, Akkni satti etc..” but this year alone, my mother did not participate. She was being swayed in faith here and there during this time. I was very glad that she did not participate in the temple rituals. Later after that month, from February she completely started to trust in God, there was lot of changes happening in her and lot of miracles happening. My mother used to be person of ardent faith, walking to Thiruchendur, go to lot of temples, doing lot of religious activities and having lot of religious items at home.  God started to speak to her at the same time her healing was slowly happening. She was beginning to realize how God when she called upon Him could heal her , when all the other methods she tried had failed.

My mother started going to our farm and pray to Jesus. Before she accepted the Lord, she forsook to take care of the farm thinking that who will take care of her time and had no interest to remove the grass to feed the cows, she lived in such a discouragement. But after she accepted the Lord, she was encouraged and started to do her duties with enthusiasm. Even before she got complete healed she told me that she was experiencing great peace from the Lord, which she never had before and was having great joy in her heart. God did not heal her at once, the process was slowly happening and in mean time God was convicting her of the religious items that were in the house and she started to slowly put away the religious items (Thiruchendur garland,coin), the horoscope and other things out of the house. The village people looking at her started to question of her faith, but my mother so bodly answered them that Jesus is the one who has given her life and only because of Him she is alive today.  If anyone says that they are having any problem she told them to come to Jesus and he would solve the problem. We used to be amazed how God was working in her life. She did not know about baptism and in the village if someone takes baptism it would become a big issue. I only prayed during this time and feared that foot that she has kept forward, she should not take it back. God strengthened me and ensured that “He who has called is faithful” and the throne is His. He is the only one who takes the responsibility to take care of my family, I should take that responsibility and that I can do nothing only God can do everything. I can only come to His throne and at his feet seek His grace.

“Though we are faithless, He is always faithful”. I never spoke to my mother about baptism, but God himself spoke to her and created a intuition in her for taking baptism and by the grace of God she took baptism a week before. Glory be to God. To me, for a man however be the beginning, the end is important. God gave me burden to pray for my grandmother’s salvation (my mom’s mom) and my grandmother also has been saved. The lord spoke to her in vision and asked her to come to her and he will take care of her. My grandmother has become a believer and is growing stronger in faith, even though she does not know to read she has kept the bible near her pillow and keeps on calling the name of Jesus.  

Please do continue to pray for other family members, my sister family, my family and my father for their salvation. 

 

 

He chose first

THANKING OUR MASTER 🙏for this Opportunity to share His mighty works in my Life. There are many many all these years 🙌 but just want to glorify on how Lord Saved me and few incidents. 

It was during my college entry Lord pulled me out of this World. Usually, during college days people use to get deviated.. but I was moulded and strengthened in Christ during my College days ☺️.. By the Grace our Lord, got annointed in one of the International youth convention... Later, Every day is a kind of wow day 😍with our master... Was led by Spirit of the Lord each and every day 💓... I and 2 more(friends) worshipped our LORD during break hours which paved a way to win a soul for Christ. Then it was me and three more joined 🙋‍♀️. We were Christ centred and one such example is God did not allow us to partake in College strike.. The beauty here is the whole of the College went out except four of us 😁. Was quite challenging but our only strength was "Christ with us"💗. As God lifted up David, Our MASTER lifted me and my 3 friends to the top level in our college... 

After marriage, faced many trials and temptations and from all God proved only one thing that "HOW MUCH HE LOVED ME"🤩 and in every situation made me realize that "OUR REDEEMER LIVETH" ❤️... Many many... 

To be precise, God saved my Son's life. It was when he was 3 years old, my mom gave ear drops (5ml) orally. Usually we give 2 to 3 drops externally. But unknowingly she gave 5ml orally. His brain got irritated and doctor's gave only 24 hrs time... Our Precious HEAVENLY DOCTOR reversed everything and the ultimate richness is within 24 hrs time God gave a discharge summary, that he is perfectly Normal.  Praise the Lord!!!!🙋‍♀️ No words to explain about HIS LOVE!! 

Adding to this want to highlight the supernatural power of our Lord that happened in My Father's life. It was during the time when my sister's marriage was planned. Every plan was going on.. Invitations came... at about 27 days to marriage, he had Brain stroke and his left side was totally paralyzed. This shook us to the core🥺 .. No faith, No hope,  was dry and spent days only with tears.... The LORD who has Preordained everything is worthy enough to set that into action whatever may be the block/bondage 🙏... He was in ICU was more 10 days... During that days, we as a family  submitted 100% and said LORD LET YOUR WILL BE DONE AND NOT Satan's. One night we 3 (sister's) prayed fervently (thanking our LORD for giving us the Spirit of prayer). Though there was no improvement in His health even after 15 days, we would like to discharge him out of Hospital. We kept our dad 💯 percent in prayer. Once again our Master made us to enjoy this "MY REDEEMER LIVETH".  No hope to walk, no hope to move his hands, no hope to talk... But Our Lord made Him to walk, climb up the stairs to the wedding Hall and everything went well.... It was a Red sea experience in our life... It is not "NO POSSIBLE", It is "NOT AT ALL POSSIBLE".. BUT HE MADE IT POSSIBLE 😍😍...... OOO MUCH MORE TILL THIS TIME... will end up here... Once again Thanking my MASTER for giving me an opportunity to share HIS MIGHTY works in my Life.... Just want to share one thing that I heard from one of the message "IT IS ONLY AFTER WRITING OUR LAST PAGE, WE ALL ARE FORMED IN OUR MOTHER'S WOMB" So all these taught me one thing that "GOD IS IN CONTROL". If HE would have the account of our Hair, HOW MUCH MORE OUR LIFE IS IN HIS HAND"...... HAPPY  😊 to be he Daughter of our HEAVENLY FATHER 💖 !!!!!! 🙏 🙏

Testimony, Bible reading

Hi friends, 

I would like to introduce myself before I pen my testimony. I am an ex infoscion and had been a part of shols fellowship since 2007 till 2016. All my years never even attempted to read the bible with an intention to complete the book. In the year of 2018, when Thiru came up with one-year/two-year bible readings in the shocker wives’ group, I wanted to give it a shot to read Bible everyday regularly. It was not as easy as it started, the initial few books kept me interesting and started the habit with the smooth flow. Later with Leviticus, Numbers I found it very monotonous and boring and there are some books I never understood a word unless I pondered for the details from internet. 

Finally I completed the entire Book in Dec 2020 for the first time with me literally dragging to complete certain books. Honestly, I did not find any satisfaction apart from completing THE BOOK. Started my next run with a mission to ponder more and listen to His words and there it started again in the year 2021, here now with 10 days ahead I will be completing THE BOOK again for the second time consecutively by God's grace. The catch is I still don’t get His language completely although I have grown up now to teach my kid and hubby on few pages 😊. These 4 years in this GrpBibleReading group had been a ride to be remembered indeed. Thank you Thiru, Prarthana, Jeba Ponmalar and others for being a company! My mission to complete the BIBLE still remains open. I believe in His time I will have find my wisdom.

I thought completing the Bible end to end will make me a proud daughter to my MIL and I can hit on Bible quiz at church and show off a little 😊. But surprisingly it worked in various other ways as it changed my life, my character, my priorities, my values, my thoughts, words, deeds everything completely. Life is so different now. Life is the best now. I can swear to assure that reading Bible regularly has been the only reason behind my changes. The changes work as a promise in you …. Slowly but definitely comprehending.

I end my testimony encouraging all you girls to read regularly amidst all the Goliaths we have face every single day. I believe GrpBibleReading watsapp group will be a game changer to you all. 

Stay blessed!

Testimony cancer

Hi friends,

I am an ex-infoscion and I wanted to share my testimony here on this Christmas Eve. 

In the year 2020(April) my husband was diagnosed with blood cancer. 

We started taking treatment in CMC, vellore. Even after so many chemotherapy sessions ,the cancer cells didn't come down. The only word we hear on most of our meetings with doctor was -"disease is too aggressive to treat". But anyway as per senior doctors advice we proceeded with a final treatment option - bone marrow transplantation. Transplantation was successfull ( which is itself only by grace of God. It was not a guarantee from doctos that patients could make it out of transplantation room alive, as anything could go wrong.) and he came back home by 2021 February. At this time the cancer cells became 0% and he was recovering very well. 

From the year 2020 -2022 Jesus graciously met all our need. The spirit of the Lord helped us to navigate through these tough situations with faith and hope. There was never a day when we were left wondered how do we pay our hospital bills. God provided whenever we were in need of funds. Indeed 'God will make a way where there seems to be no way'. 

Life was back to normal and my husband joined back his office. But little did we know what was about to happen. 

In 2022 ,June when my husband took a blood test prior to getting covid vaccination we noticed his blood counts were too low. (Platelets were just 20000). We rushed to CMC . Doctors took tests and confirmed that his cancer has relapsed . As they already exhausted all treatment options they didn't know how to treat now or what to do. Finally they adviced us to go for pallative care ( maintain quality of life as much time he has instead of treating the disease) . 

Hearing these words shook us to the core. I couldnt understand why god would lead us miraculously in the past years to come to this end. I had so many questions in my mind and even was a little bit shaken in my faith. But after a couple of days I completely trusted our life in God's hand and submitted myself to gods will. I prayed God for strength, wisdom to understand his will and act accordingly. My husband's condition got worsen day by day. We consulted doctors from other big hospitals for second opinion but they too said no other treatment option, he has few more months left, so try to make most of the days left.  His blood counts used to get low (platelets sometimes even got as low as 4000) and we would do blood transfusion that would keep him stable for a week. This is how days went in the month of June and July. But we never stopped praying or never lost our faith.Friends and family were praying for a miracle. From August first week, his blood counts started increasing little by little and all the counts came back to normal by August end. He became active and normal. Doctors were surprised and started asking us if we are taking any other medications. Doctors are still to day wondering how it happened. 

 When every expert in haemotology field thought he didn't have a chance to make it past this October, Jesus made the impossible happen.

Miracles do happen. When we trust in the Lord he never leaves us abandoned . My husband is alive and very healthy this day only by the love and abundance mercy of our father in heaven. God has given us this second chance and we want to make sure we glorify him each day thorough our everything. Trials and tribulations I went through this year taught me to see with the eyes of faith. 

While moving forward to the new year I have decide to look upto God and his promises rather than looking up to the circumstances around . 

Words can't explain how greatful we are as a family for God sending his son to be born and die and rise so that we could have a joyful life here and in eternity🙏🏼

Rollercoaster

*#Testimony2022*

2022 has been an unexpected rollercoaster ride . 

My husband had to have a surgery in Jan. Joyce took care of the kids during those hospital days. What followed were not that great, but God sustained, healed us and delivered us throughout. 

We moved the girls to a new school, and had to move to a new house near school. 

I thank God for the miraculous way he led us in getting the admissions, a house JUST next door to school, an individual house with a Christian owner! Lilybel has got a Christian playschool too. God has answered our prayers by helping the girls get adjusted to the new house,  new school, new teachers and friends, cursive handwriting, cbse board, and helped to excel as well. I can see that God had graciously guided them. 

As many of you knew God had blessed us with a good amazing maid akka for the past 9 years. She was the one who raised my kids and took care of all the household things. But she couldn't come to the new house. We had a temporary maid for 2 months,but it didn't work out.  So since September we have been without a maid. Whatever things I thought I could NEVER do in my life, God has taught and helped me do it every single day. Cooking, cleaning, washing, drying, folding 😋. With wfh and kids returning by 12.30 pm, 2.45 pm , it had been a busy schedule. Joyce has been my inspiration and so have many of you.  

I thank God for holding me throughout all the ups and downs and teaching me every day. This year had been a year of new learnings , lot of 'first time ever' experiences and a year of discipline. Keep our family in your prayers, for wisdom to handle everything at home, especially growing kids and work ; and to follow God's leading in building his kingdom and  also for my husband to get a good job. 

I almost forgot, the n number of times kids and us have fallen sick, God has healed us and sustained me through handling sickness phase of kids. 

Only when you look back and write you learn how beautifully God has fulfilled this 'தாங்குவேன்; ஏந்துவேன்,  சுமப்பேன், தப்புவிப்பேன்.'

Isaiah  46:4 . And I stand humbly at his awesome amazing doings in our lives. Praise and glory be to our King of Kings, Jesus!

Rocking for Christ

Testimony 

One of my Resolution -

I took the New year Resolution 2022 was

"Need to distribute 365 Tracts within 31st Dec 2022"

Few of my genuine friends such as Juice seller amma, Beautician sister and Cobbler anna accepted to give it to their customers, my family and few other helped me to distribute and by God's grace successfully distributed 365 Tracts by 31st Dec 2022.

All glory to God

Alleluia

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Out of 365 Tracts, 1 or 2 ladies rejected to get it, remaining all happily acknowledged and accepted to get the same.

It motivated me to decide, this year New year Resolution 730 Tracts (double of 365) to be distributed by 31st  Dec 2023.

Will keep Rocking for Christ💐

God directs the path

I have been trying to write this testimony for long (6 years! Sooo long!!). I had promised God I will do it but kept procrastinating. God gave me the Grace to write it today 😊 at last!

6 years lot of things have changed, so I am not sure how many of you guys remember me and my prayer requests. I was in desperate need of a project and I had a visa with me. By Gods Grace and by the prayers of the wonderful prayer warriors of Infosys I was able to get a project and travel to Onsite.

For most of us IT folks the dream is to come to onsite, and in the current situation with new USCIS rules, Trumps policies everything might seem grim! If any of you are in that situation don’t lose hope, hang in there! About 8 years back I was in the same boat, for two consecutive years my name was listed for visa initiation by my managers but rejected by DM (My DMs words were Women don’t generate revenue as they request an early return from onsite). After a lot of struggle and promising I will stay in US for 2 years and will not request to come back in a year he approved my request for visa initiation.

Due to lack of projects in my account, the same DM who wanted me to stay 2 years released me from the project. Now I was left with a visa no projects, desperately searching for an opportunity. By God’s Grace I did get a project but had to travel to Trivandrum for training. Got KTs, trainings etc, but unfortunately that project was scraped! All I could do was cry out to the Lord, Jesus Father why this is happening to me, why me!! But he gave me the courage to carry my cross.

Mathew 11:29-30

29 Take my yoke upon you and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Jesus asks us to take his yoke (a wooden crosspiece that is fastened over the necks of two animals and attached to the plow or cart that they are to pull). If an animal were to plow a field without the yoke, how hard it would be for it, but with the yoke its burden is reduced. God is requesting us to do the same. Any worries, burden, cross that we carry he asks us to place it in his arms and to lean on him.

I did the same, cried out to him and left all my worries on his feet. He answered my prayer. I got another project in Trivandrum, but a new technology! 6 years of exp in a technology I had to push it to the back seat and start new. I felt my world crashing all around me! But I knew Christ was with me even in my darkest moments and he will never leave me. I decided to trust Him rather than my doubts and fear. At last travelled to US, new project, new place, I did not know anyone from the place I was travelling to, had to leave my 4-year-old and my husband, only hope was My Christ (that is all we need! If he is there with us who can be against us!)

But God did not stop testing me, he wanted to strengthen my faith in Him! After about 2 months into the new project, my manager informed me that client has suddenly requested that I complete a certification in the new technology I was working on, as they wanted me to lead the project. And the training would cost around $2000 and the certification would cost $250. Since these certifications and training were need based, Infosys will reimburse only once I clear the certification! (I really hope the policies are changed now). My poor manager did not know what to do, he just encouraged me to do the certification and said he can lend me his credit card, and I can repay him later. I would every day cry out to the Lord to help me! I had left my family in desperate need to fulfill some of the financial commitments we had and now I fall into more debt!

Deuteronomy 15:6

For the LORD your God will bless you as he has promised, and you will lend to many nations but will borrow from none.

Just as he promised he gave me the knowledge and Wisdom to clear my certification and I was able to reimburse the money from Infosys.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

I have always wondered why God let so many hardships cross my way! Even if we are not faithful, He is. He loves us and always has a plan for us.

God made way for my Family to join me in US. Fast forward 6 years, because of the new technology that I learned I was able to get a new Job.

Any pain you go through God always turns it into Joy, so never lose hope and keep trusting in his plans and his timing.

Please remember me and my family in your prayer, I will do the same.

God Bless you!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lockdown bible reading family

Actually I have a testimony and I don't know to put in words the way you guys do... This is about bible reading... In this lock down period, I was urged in my spirit to help my kids in bible reading.

With the pure grace of God I started to set time (one hr in stop clock) and encouraged my kids to read along with me. They were interested and started with Mathew. As a week passed my hubby too joined us and by God's grace my 3rd kid didnt disturb us at that time alone.

By the grace of God my both the kids completed the New Testament and now they have started with Genesis. I really thank my dear Jesus for guiding me through and my kids are more interested and everyday they are reading around 4 to 6 chps.

Pls pray that God should lead their lives according to His will as they grow by. 😊Glory to God😊

Praise God!

How Infy fshp helped me build a Christ centered family?

How Infy fshp helped me build a Christ centered family?

Journey in Infy, no regrets
1 year full, I was on bench after my training period in Infy. We as a group of fshp girls always worked with passion to do something for God. We used to give birthday surprises decorating cubicles of fshp girls. We girls meet in each other's rooms every month for fasting prayers. Fasting prayers, helped us to know each other and also grow in Christ. Few passionate first generation believers in our fshp are a true source of inspiration. Few girls used to stay in our room and we used to try different dishes and have fellowship together. We used to wait for Thursday fellowships with so much eagerness and God helped us grow together through every Thursday fellowship. We had mission trips too. It helped me understand the real field work of ministry and increased my burden and passion for Christ. We girls used to visit orphanages together over weekends to help them out by God's grace. Passion and love for God even drove few of us to Vellore to meet a young college boy who had cancer and after we shared gospel with him, in few weeks he died. God's ways are amazing. Confluence, thanksgiving days once in a year was yet another joyous moment. We were not shy to perform choreo for His glory. Christmas programs were yet another chance to show the love of God in our workplace and we worked together with zeal and enthusiasm. Any fshp wedding, mostly all of us girls we will plan and be there to witness the testimony of God. Once few girls even travelled to my hometown, unforgettable joyous days in my life. Yes we learnt verses with passion, prayed together, attended many prayer meetings together. Haggai leadership conference, Sishya pre-marital seminar and many more over weekends helped me understand that God is so real and is working in many lives and how I can be a witness in workplace. Yes, each day in Infy were fruitful days for me personally. I don't have even a small regret that I wasted my days when I was a single. God took care of me, he blessed me with friends full of love and care. He prepared me and moulded me each day for a bigger purpose. I later realized that God used Infy fshp as a tool, to lay a strong foundation on Christ, to help me build a Godly family and raise a passionate generation for Christ.

My waiting time for marriage
Once I happened to meet my elder sister's friend along with my dad in an hospital during my college 1st year I think. She adviced me that I should start praying for my life partner to be a believer and instructed clearly not to get unequally yoked. I sincerely started praying for my life partner to be a believer, God fearing, loving, caring, no bad habits and many other small small things I wrote in a diary and started praying right from the 1st year of my college.

All my room friends and fshp friends got married one by one and then I was left all alone. It was difficult but still God was speaking to me those days. I have never stayed alone before that. I was earlier a coward full of fear even about cockroaches, darkness, worms. I was lacking courage to face things on my own. But God moulded me each day after I joined Infosys. He delivered me out of all of my fears, inferiority complex and worries about pimples on my face, worries about how short in height I am and much more. He gave me rock solid faith to keep every small thing in prayer and then to leave it in His hands according to His will. This rock solid faith is helping me to still run for His grace, do multi-tasking handling family chores, office, kids, Sunday school ministry, Friday fasting prayers and many many small small things for kingdom of God. Passion to serve God has never come down. Yes He talks to me each day through His word, His people. He is so real in my life. Yes there are times when I break down in tears, when things hurt me. But His grace is abounding to lift me up from the sorrows. Yes He wipes my every tear. He heals my broken heart and wounds. If not for Him, I won't exist today. If anything I feel overwhelming, then I put fasting prayers for days as however God leads during that time and before I finish, God fills me with peace that no one in the world can give me. Yes again I start running with divine strength each day by His grace. One thing God taught me is to deliberately take conscious effort to bounce back soon to a joyful mood. As Beu often says and reminds me "Joy of the Lord is my strength!". Another thing we all often remind each other. "if you going through a struggle, its God's time to show OFF. So sit back and relax after you give it to Him in prayer!"

Hannah Faith Daniel from our fshp once told a testimony about how she prayed for a microtip pencil and she got it finally in a very miraculous way. This strengthened my faith to keep anything and everything in prayers however small or big. In the year 2010, I prayed to God fervently for my marriage to happen before my birthday August 9th. I still do not know how I prayed like that :-). But God has been so faithful to fulfill my small desires. I was taking a clear stand to my daddy that I would get yoked only with a believer. God had already prepared my life partner in a totally different place and different family that we were not even aware of. God had sent an angel in the form of a pastor (I should say) to a petrol bunk where my FIL was standing with a sad face. Pastor voluntarily picked up a conversation with my FIL and came to know that he was upset and praying for his son's marriage. After few weeks, this pastor contacted my FIL and gave my dad number from a monthly magazine in which my father had given details, seeking alliance. Yes my husband's family came to see me just exactly one week before my birthday. Next week, my parents went to their house. I fasted and prayed for a day, and cried in His presence. God gave me the peace to say Yes to my dad and it was exactly on my birthday. It is an awesome unbelievable miracle and it's purely God arranged marriage I should say. He answered every small prayers. He is such a faithful God. From then on, I listed down prayer points for my marriage needs and for it to happen in perfect peace 1 month before. Me and my husband started prayer daily over call for our marriage needs and yes he led through beautifully and we did not lack anything. Engagement and marriage happend within a month. By God's grace our fshp friends took a van and came to witness the testimony in person. The marriage arrangements and everything fell in place so beautifully. I had took my baptism from Father Berchmans during my 11th or 12th std. The biggest dream of my life finally got fulfilled. Yes Father S.J Berchmans himself conducted my marriage ceremony too, a blessing I don't deserve. A true, humble man of God who dedicated all his life for Christ alone. It was purely His grace that it happened. Yes again God fulfilled my small desires.

How Friday fasting prayers started
After marriage, it was a struggle to handle new things initially. 3 fshp friends usually met for lunch and as days passed by, since all 3 of us were married we used to discuss about the issues we had at home. One among us was waiting for baby for long and she had visited many doctors and was almost in tears. God gave us burden and oneness to fast and pray for a miracle instead of simply talking about it daily. By God's grace, Yes she herself stopped going to doctors and she naturally conceived within 6 months or 1 year I remember after we started the prayer. In that Friday prayers, we also started seeking God's wisdom on how to be submissive to husband, how to be active and energetic to do all household chores with joy, how to show love and be patient with in-laws even if there are differences, how to raise up kids, how to hang on to daily prayer and bible reading even if we don't have time etc. Yes many many small things we put forth in God's presence and started seeking his wisdom. Praise God, it was a big turning point in my life to lead a healthy marriage life and to understand God's will about marriage. God brought in so many women of God from nowhere into Friday fasting prayers over years and yes His ways are amazing. Numerous testimonies we witnessed together along with beautiful women of God in our fshp. Pages and books can be written… all memories are so close to my heart. By God's grace I started enjoying my marriage life even amidst ups and downs. I love my husband, a blessing directly from the hand of God with no bad addictions and a person full of love. He helps me wherever possible in every small thing. We play together hide and seek, all games, we pray, sing, dance, read and talk about bible together with kids, we go early to bed and have ample family time, simply talking to kids and playing, no cable, only time-boxed screen time for all of us, we make yummy dishes together at home many more….countless amount of fun we as a family are having. Purely, only His grace alone. I am testifying this for the glory of God and for whoever is reading this to understand that our God is a living God. This is only because Christ is the center of our family. "A chord of 3 strands is not easily broken. Ecclesiastes 4:12". Having said this, it doesn't mean that there are not even small arguments or small problems that I face in my family. I have many things from different angles. God taught me to take one thing at a time and also one day at a time. I do mistakes sometimes, I regret for it and get reconciled with God. I get hurt and cry out my heart sometimes for hours too to God. He heals my wounds and I bounce back through His grace to run the race kept for me. My favorite verse "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13"

HINT: If you need to find time for family, please track your mobile usage time on apps, whatsapp, social media. Install Digital well-being apps to track your screen time and reduce it as much as possible. Spend time with family, friends and every person you meet daily to build and nurture relationships. Human beings sitting near you in car pool, cubicles, at home are more valuable and they need you!

Now if you are a single and part of Infosys women fshp, be clear today, you are not here by accident. But God has a plan in your life. He loves you so much and you are so special in His eyes. Yes please pray to God to reveal himself and His purpose for you being part of Infosys. Utilize every minute of your single life to get closer to Christ, to make your foundation strong in Christ. Grab every opportunity that comes your way to be part of prayer, bible meditation, fshp meetings, prayer meetings and so on. Please dont give excuses and never say NO TIME for God! Develop good friendship with other women folks in Christ so that you can join hands, help each other when someone is low. Never isolate yourself, get into loneliness for any problem that you are facing. It will only put you into a pit with darkness around. But instead choose to be joyful and active in God's kingdom and contribute however little you can.

Remember if you going through a struggle, its God's time to show OFF. So sit back and relax after you give it to Him in prayer!

ALL GLORY TO GOD ALONE! I am a sinner still fighting hard to do the will of God!

Note: There are so many married women of God who have been blessed through Infy  fshp. We all would like to help you out for any questions. Please feel free and reach out to us. We love to help you, as we ought to give back what we received from God.

Testimony on God's care

My son is turning 7 today...!

Yes... Today is my little boy's birthday 😊
Whenever I look at him, I used to blame myself and that past instance came to my mind which cause an impact on his development. When he was around 1.5 yrs old, his fever got shoot up to 104 and got seizers for few minutes. This was happened when he was in my lap and I was about to give him sponge bath. He got hospitalized, recovered and then for next 2 to 3 yes we were observed a delay in his socialize development. We ran to Chennai's no 1peadiatric psychiatrist, followed with number of therapies to make him normal.

But in all these ways which he travelled so far, we can sense and praise God's presence over him all the time.... For others eye he is a normal boy who is just shy of to communicate but as parents we know where he need support and encouragement. As worldly parents if we know our kids these much, how far our heavenly Father knows us and cares for us each and every second.... This is a great learning for us from our son's life so far.... He is a great blessing for us who unite me and husband under one roof(we were just met on       weekends for last 10 yrs due to job nature) and he is a perfect younger brother for my eldest son ( he used to tell this often).
My son is improving a lot by God's grace and God has perfectly set forth his way wherever he go (school environment/therapists/friends etc.,).
I completely trust on God for my son's future as He is the one who gave him in our hand to bring him for His glory 😊
Praise our heavenly Father with me and pray for our little boy 😊

Gossiping at work

Good topic, from my side, I am a quiet person but I talk so much when I have an one to one conversation... if you want details from me, you can talk patiently and get everything out of my mouth... But, one day when in prayer, I was like totally crying because I've became a way for goasipping... I think like I am helping people sharing others burden but actually am false spreading... because everyone doesn't talk to you caring for other person... from that day I've stopped talking if it is not relevant.. It's ok if they think we are showing attitude.. for us Christ matters and no one

Also, one more thing wanted to share... i joined HCL and there were few others who joined with me... everytine I go for a break with them, a girl whom with o became close talks so.much...about stories from her house to office.... tqlkning and complaining... I use to hear and give a smile and support her talking with her.m but when I was reading about tongues in James, I actually started hating to be in that group...

1. It affects our time management in office ( we sit and gossip for long though I am not interested)
2. It affects my uniqueness (thougj I don't like I still be there just because they are friends)
3. It affects my   accountability (I come to office to work and log 8 hrs in my place but I sit and talk and log only 4 hrs in place)

4. I am affecting my deliverables on time

Overall I am losing my testimony

What i did was

1. I go for lunch.. never open my mouth if it is not relevant..  there are certain  times where we have to pitch in and show the love of Christ but at the same time we need not support such things

2. I make sure I sit for 8 hrs in my place

3. I don't talke a long break

4. When in place i make sure I focus in my work and not on the talks

5. And I never talk about others to anyone

Result was we have a tool which calculates how long I sit in my system ..... It was 8 hrs average and my manager called me once and told me like 'Carolon, I see you alone maintaining the hours and what is the reason..

My answer was simple...I told him I am accountable to God in what I do....

And He said immediayly.. Oh you are a Christian.. great...
Ya I have started practicing it
We have to be accountable for what we do and responsible for our activities
And that makes us unique

And make sure if we gather for prayer, I put extra effort before so I don't miss the fellowship
also I come to office now a days by 8.45 and leave by 6.30 and make sure I use my time efficiently
There are some impacts too... some use to say I am showing attitude and some tell me I am putting ice on my managers head for appraisal and some even said I am a robot and also had one comment from my friend - why do I ignore her...
Its ok... but we need to be .

It's so easy to get into the gossip mode even when we meet as believers.I ve been guilty of this too.

I ve had extended tea breaks n lunch breaks.

Yes Rosy.. sometimes it drains our energy too . We will never know that
I've been there and still there but with the help of God trying to come out of it

Fees paid on time!

I have a small testimony to share. We had to pay our son’s fees and we just had 10k more than what was required. The fees chalan was to be produced at the school the next day.

I tried paying that day night and to my dismay the transaction went thru the bank but stopped somewhere... the amount got debited, there was no transaction failure but on the school page the fees said it was not paid. Both of us didn’t have sufficient fund.

I didn’t get my salary that month because of LOP. I was thinking Lord what will I do, .....then I remembered that I was getting a message from my bank from 2 days that the FD that I had opened the previous year, amount that I required for the fees + 7k was maturing the next day. I thanked the Lord for His timely provision. Lord was so mindful that he prepared the funds a year ago😊

Fgb - salvation song

Journey with My Father

As the song goes, “This is my story - This is my song - Praising my Savior all the day long”.

Yes, this is the story of my confusion, of salvation, of trials/temptations and of the goodness and mercy of my creator.

Being born into an orthodox and devoted Hindu family, I grew up with a reverence for the gods that I was taught to believe in. I memorized Hindu slogans and wrote them on paper to make garlands out of them. I routinely participated in religious events during my childhood.

I had several schedules for visiting different temples.
daily (opposite to house)
bi-weekly (30-minute walk/10-minute drive from house)
monthly (45 min drive).

“External cleanliness will make anyone holy before god” was the opinion I had.  My Heavenly Father had greater plans for me even though I had not known Him.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” - Jeremiah 29:11

It all began here:

I finished 8th grade in my hometown and God put a desire in my heart to join a Christian school in the 9th grade. My dad tried to prevent my enrolment in that school because it was situated quite a distance from my home and we did not know anyone who went to that school. After convincing my dad a little, I joined this Christian Missionary School which laid the foundation for my future.
The scripture classes that I chose helped me to know the bible parables. I developed the habit of reading the bible when I needed something from God, otherwise I had no intention of knowing God. When I completed this education, Jesus just got added to my already existing list of gods.
Later, I joined a Hindu Institute for my bachelor’s degree. Many students there started their day only after visiting the temple on campus. I also prayed at the Hindu temple on campus along with my parents.

I had to live in a hostel since the college was a long distance from my parent’s home.

Divine Invite:

“You did not choose me, but I chose you. John 15:16 “

We had an inauguration program on Friday and the actual classes started on Monday. Since it was a Friday, only 3-4 girls opted to stay in the hostel that weekend. I was one of them and so was Jansi who is a strong believer.

Jansi and I met in that silent hostel.  Initially I was not comfortable with her because I thought she was my senior :). For both of us, it was the first time away from home. We spoke a lot about various topics that night.

She had a photo of her late (to-be) sister in law( sheeba akka)  , that caught my attention. Jansi told me about Sheeba akka’s life; a life which reflected God every single moment and a life lived in complete surrender to God. She gave me the glimpse of how God spoke to Sheeba Akka. How He walked with her amidst all the odds etc.

Well, it could be penned as a different blog. I am not getting deeper into it for now. I would leave that part to Jansi to take it up later.

That night I went to bed with a bunch of open questions in my heart.

Am I not spiritual?
Am I not going to temple regularly?
How come I never had such an experience?
Is what I am doing not enough?

Jansi’s parents are very spiritual.  Most of us inherit the characters (good/bad) from our family and that is how is with her as well.  Jansi’s helping nature, zeal for God and in-depth knowledge of scripture always impressed me.  I had even longed to have parents who would pray for me (especially during semester exams :P).

After we met a few times she invited me to the prayer cell that she had started.
I was very reluctant to accept her invitation initially. Later God drew me to the prayer cell and I started liking it. We were meeting daily at 7 PM. The first thing I liked there was everyone praying for the needs of others with such a burden. Until then I had never prayed for anyone outside my family. I was selfish even in my prayers then.  Gradually I started reading the scripture and God put a thirst in me. Even when I came to hostel for lunch break, I started reading bible.
God placed so many believers in my life who supported me spiritually by giving edifying books to read, CDs to listen etc. I am thankful to God and all those friends who walked with me at that time.

Thunderstruck:

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? - Romans 8:35

Everything was going fine until some others at the hostel turned against our spiritual stand. They thought the prayer cell was just to convert people into Christianity. They complained to our warden about the prayer cell. Because it was a Hindu college, the warden was very upset with us.

To stop our gathering, our warden started coming for rounds very often and targeted all the members of the prayer cell. We changed the time from 7PM to 10PM, 10PM to 12AM (mid night). We also had catwalk times :). Yes, there were times we had to walk to the room (where we met) without footwear to avoid any noise, turn off all the lights in the room and read scripture by candle light. Many eyes were watching us.

As David says in Ps 91:3, God was so good to us. God exalted His children in all the areas before their very eyes.

“For He will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence.” Ps 91:3

"You will be hated by all because of My name, but the one who endures to the end, he will be saved.” Mark 13:13

Once I was called to our warden’s room and questioned about my change of heart. When she asked me what I got by leaving my own god and following the God of others, my answer was, “Ma’am, there are many kinds of sweets viz laddu, jalebi etc.  You need to taste it personally. It cannot be described by words. We need to step forward and experience it to find the difference.”

My answer annoyed her so much and she was about to call my dad to complain about me. It was soooo much fun (sarcastic)!

“Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then I will be confident.” Psalm 27:3

Even now, I noticed that many have the same perspective about conversion. They all think - what is the need for anyone to leave his/her own religion and follow someone else’s religion? The fact is, this is nothing to do with change of religion. It’s all about a change of heart. Once you know Jesus personally and start having the intimate relationship with him, you would never want to leave Him.  He is that good. :)

 “Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in him.” - Ps 34:8

When I completed bachelors, I had accepted Jesus as my savior. After that, I did not know how to take it further. I was reading the bible on and off. I never had the thought of going to prayer cell at church regularly. Though I had visited few churches, I was not really interested in going to churches. A few years passed by and a lot of things had happened in my life but Jesus was in the same position in my heart. There was no change and no improvement in my spiritual scale though.
Marvelously orchestrated:
“He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” - Phil 1:6

I got deployed onsite at my client’s location in the USA. I was still not looking for a church to attend at all. My friend ‘Ramesh’ also came to the same work location after 2 months. He and his wife took me to an Indian church (Christ Church Of India, San Jose) which was the turning point in my spiritual life.

I became a regular church goer. God helped me to understand the bible and apply it to my life and this pulled me up, even though I failed.

Pastor Uncle (Rev Ranjan Samuel), Aunty and the fellowship with church friends really helped me a lot to know God more.

The main thing I learned was “God is not a vending machine. I cannot see Him as my errand boy. He is the sovereign God. I cannot go to Him only for my needs rather I ought to love Him with all my heart.” I started to understand the meaning of salvation, the unconditional love God has for me, and the sacrifice He gave for me.

Rubber hits the road:

In the Indian culture girls are married off without much delay and I was no exception to it. As in any traditional Hindu family, my parents too strongly believed in horoscope and this worked to my advantage. As most of the horoscopes did not match, the search for the groom continued. I had this question within me, should i obey my parents and marry an unbeliever or should i marry a believer. God clearly spoke to me and i began to understand the verse “Do not be unequally yoked” from 2 Corinthians 6:14. Hence I decided to marry only a believer and conveyed the same to my parents. My parents felt betrayed and helpless but God slowly began to make them understand the depth of my faith and they gave into my wish of marrying a believer. But the hurdle of marriage was not yet over.

He carried me:

A bride/groom who is the only believer in the family still faces rejection by the so-called Christians of this world. I too had to go through this rejection many times. I felt dejected and let down but God never gave up on me. He was preparing a place for me on this earth. During these tough times I had the privilege of experiencing the comfort, love and fellowship of a praying church and also friends through whom my faith was rekindled. God answered all our prayers and on May 9th, 2018 I got married and was welcomed into a family that loves and holds me as their own daughter.

He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ- Phil 1:6

Wifi in God's terms

Want to share a small similar testimony- due to our relocation, we were staying in a temporary accommodation for sometime, WiFi was not included in the contract. It was very expensive so we didn't opt for it. When we reached the place, I found WiFi there and the password was on the router itself. I was really tempted to connect to it, because my data connection was not good enough and it was a time when I needed internet more than ever. I felt the Holy spirit telling me not to do that. God gave me the grace to prevail. In the next week, we had to extend the contract with the company and they provided WiFi complementary..

God really honours us when we take a step of obedience. I was really helped by a sermon I heard by Zac Poonen in which he tells that it is not difficult for God to provide us with the required money but it is very difficult for God to find people who obey God even when it costs. Thinking how many times I would have lost abundant blessing thinking I am saving a little money!!

Laptop in God's terms.

Short testimony - We recently ordered a laptop from flipkart and I insisted my hubby to go for genuine windows copy which will cost around 4k extra (I recently read a devotion by sister. BalaSamson mentioning specifically that using pirates versions of software's is not acceptable in God's standards).But my hubby went ahead and booked with DOS OS and he thought we can reinstall with pirated version. I prayed asking God to forgive this act.Somehiw we ended returning the laptop twice with different issues and finally he asked for repayment from flipkart. I felt relieved and I prayed this one prayer that if we buy new laptop it should only be with genuine version.after then too he was checking out for laptop options with DOS OS but nothing worked out. Today right now am in Lenovo showroom ND we have bought the laptop with genuine version. Praise God for honoring my desire ND prayer.

Ephesians 5:9,10-Walk as children of light ...finding out what is acceptable to the Lord.

எபேசியர் 5:10 கர்த்தருக்குப் பிரியமானது இன்னதென்று நீங்கள் சோதித்துப்பாருங்கள்

Many a times we pray that we should live a life acceptable to God (a life which pleases God). But do we really know what is acceptable /pleasing to God?We were busy pleasing our children/hubby/manager/team mates/in laws/friends/relatives/siblings/neighbour/church but haven't thought about pleasing God.
Today please ask God to open your spiritual eyes to know,accept and follow what pleases God more than men.
Heavenly Father, thank you for letting us know that u want us to earnestly seek what pleases u and what doesn't. Help us to know it by reading your word as much as possible,day and night and help us to live according to it. In Jesus name. Amen.

Joy in sharing

Feeling Happy, by God's grace was able to share my testimony of how I have accepted Christ leaving Hinduism, Buddhism to a 60 year colleague at work .looks like her parents are staunch Pentecostal but she was totally into world of drinks and all sort of worldly things..she is practising relationship with God recently..I believe she was encouraged about finding  peace with God and reading Bible. Please pray that my conversation with her will bring her close to God in coming days.