Difficult pregnancy turned into joy

I would like to share my testimony :
Fear not!...
Praise God for giving me such a challenging phase to share this testimony of my pregnancy. My 2017 promise was Heb 6:14, so we were earnestly praying for a baby and by Dec somehow had a gut instinct that I was pregnant.
Due to frequent travel and sleepless nights in Dec, on new year's eve I ended up running a high fever and fatigue. In doubt we checked and I was tested positive for pregnancy. The doctor suggested it may not be viral and asked to give blood test. I was tested positive for typhoid and admitted the next day. I was administered mild dosages and was told to wait on the baby till the fever is gone and do a scan to check the survival rate.
Along with this it was found I had type 2 diabetes. It became a heredity risk. I was asked to start insulin.
By God's grace fever came down in 2 days and my first scan miraculously turned out normal with baby placed well in the uterus with good heart rate.
Initial 4 weeks were difficult with sugar and typhoid diet conflicting as neither sweet nor diet food was controlling my nausea and heartburn. I used to puke like 6 times a day, cough n sneeze very frequently causing bad abdominal pain. My only consolation during tearful nights used to be this year promise, Fear not.(Exo 14:13)
In office siting billing issue they forced me to come join. Docs suggested bed rest for a month. I had to go as they didn't approve my leaves. Which caused a lot of stress with officially trying to explain my health condition.
At home not being able to explain the mood swings made things worse. So I decided to take a break and come to mom's house and ended up bleeding one fine day out of nowhere. Doc just told me to calm down, pray and relax, put me on injections for 3 days. Told to check baby's heart beat. By God's grace baby was fine again with the cervix not ruptured. However I had spottings for a while so took two months leave with injections taken every 15 days to strengthen the uterus.
The NT scan confirmed no abnormalities. Which encouraged me to stop fretting and trust God more.
I started going to work by April and It's a blessing that my location manager understood the situation n moved me to bench with minimal work and a desktop to be seated.
My target scan suggested a healthy active baby with the right weight. But due to the underlying emotional stress, my sugar was never coming down.
I couldn't get my maid come on time and maintain good diet. Incidents like the building collapse made it fluctuate even more bad.
By 8th month doc advised us clearly that Ill have to opt for cesarean due to high insulin levels. The whole family was upset over it and I just prayed God to give me wisdom to understand his plan. I was constantly arguing with God asking him a word to tell if c-sec is his will cuz Bible never speaks of unnatural delivery like that.
One of my Sunday school aunty had told my mother few weeks earlier to claim Isa 66:7 for my delivery and pray over it. That word shook me and spoke to me clearly. Still exercised and did a lot of manual work to see if normal delivery is possible. But by 37th week, my ctg was not showing satisfying fetal response rate which is essential to induce delivery. I made up my mind and 20th aug went for surgery directly claiming the word. By the grace of God our baby boy was born. Doc told us it was the wise choice to do csec as baby's head was high and didn't come down at all, waiting for normal could've been risky. Baby's sugar level turned out normal and though a lill underweight, he is doing well.
All through the 9 and half months struggle it was only God's hands and word that lead me. And I know He will continue to do so.
Kindly keep us in prayers for good health and strength.

Overcoming Addictions

Testimony- I used to watch Vijay TV serials whenever I get some free time. I knew its not going to edify me in anyways anß it's full of filth.I self righteously thought that it's just a time pass anß I don't watch it on regular basis anß I can be without watching it also and I have control over myself. But our Lord is a holy God and he wants us also to be holy and blameless in His coming.
கொஞ்சம் புளித்தமா பிசைந்தமா முழுவதையும் புளிப்பாக்குமென்று அறியீர்களா?1cor5:6
Do you not know that a little leaven leavens the whole lump?
God reminded me this verse and I gave up watching all commercial channels completely. To my astonishment I am feeling the presence of God and anointing in the way I used to have in the earlier days of my salvation. Praising and Thanking God for such conviction and restoring back the anointing.
Dear all,please sanctify yourself and even if it's a small addiction which Gods word is convicting u ,plz prayerfully try to come out if it.Definitely we cannot do it on our own. He is eagerly waiting to pour out His spirit on the thirsty souls.

Gals,in continuation of the testimony I also wanted to share this. There are 3 stages :
1.You don't know what is wrong that is hindering your relationship with God.If Ur in this stage please ask God to help you identify it.
2.You know what is hindering u from growing closer to the Lord but couldn't get over. Ask God the strength.
3.You know what might be hindering u from Gods anointing,but you haven't thought about working in that area as it seems too hard or impossible. If that's the case please repent,ask God to show u the reason, help u work with perseverance to overcome it.
Request u self analyze anß it's good if u could share it with Ur prayer partner /prayer buddy to be accountabke. Just like how u work in a defect, nail down and fix it-Lets do the same with our spiritual defects too.

Miracle baby after multiple miscarriages

I would like to share my testimony. I had 4 miscarriages before God blessed me with my son. It was a very tough phase of my life.

I was blammed for anything and everything by my in laws family. One question I had to frequently face was, you are praying family why are you not blessed till now... I used to reply them saying God has time for everything, he will do it swiftly at that time. But those people including by husband used to say Jesus can't do everything. I used to get very much irritated when someone talks negatively especially about God. Finally at one point I got into depression. I stopped talking to relatives, avoided family get-together & functions.

But Our Father God did not leave me. He always talks to me via songs. He reminded me of the song  'In his time....'. Finally God brought change in my husband. He started joining me in the early morning prayers around 3 or 4.

The same month Mar 2014, I conceived again 5th time. But the fear of miscarriage was haunting me. I had to travel to mcity from tambaram and whenever there is a speed breaker or  small jerks I will say a prayer keeping my hand on belly. God only knows how scared I was and how much I have tortured husband during driving because of that fear.

God was there with me and helped me to overcome. It will be easy to say or advice others but so difficult to take it in reality. I was wondering why these miscarriages to me, God reminded me of a prayer I did 5 years ago. My cousin brother was married for 8 years without baby. I prayed that they should be blessed with baby at least 1 day before us. They were blessed with twins a baby boy and baby girl just 1 month before us. My eyes were filled with tears hearing that.

Though the medical reason for my miscarriage was thyroid, my thyroid levels were still high when I conceived my son. So no doubts he has done it swiftly in his time. After this God gave burden for praying for people waiting for baby. He will show us people who are known or not known to us and we pray for them without asking them if they are waiting as it might hurt them. Now for the second baby, my husband said let's treat the thyroid and bring the levels to normal before planning next baby. The thyroid levels were normal but still there was a early miscarriage.

God has revealed to my husband that we are trusting medicines for thyroid level and not him. We both prayed together again early in the morning. You won't believe we will both wake up at the same time for prayer. This time my husband's trust was more than me. Thanking God for that. When I was praying I felt someone telling me that I will  conceive before June.

Praise God I conceived in March. Whenever the fear of miscarriage is haunting me I am praying God and he is leading me so far. This time during early days I travelled by shareauto. Before starting I will pray asking God for that white Tata ace auto and middle seat. Every time God has provided me exactly the same and I thanked him ( might be very silly but...)

  Thanks to the prayer buddy group for praying and I knew few people were praying for me and thanks to them to. One of my prayer buddy is pregnant too :) praise God. Please do remember in prayer. Sorry for very long post. Tried my best to keep short.

God's faithfulness

Hi everyone,  By God’s grace, we are happily completed our 12 years of togetherness and entering into 13th year.

I would like to testimony His marvellous grace and guidance with the below few miracles happened in our path of life.
May 24,2006 We got married. We were (not exactly we, I have to mean just ‘l’ here) waiting for 4 long years to get child from His hand. Even though it’s painful and stressful, God hold me and hug me in His mightiest hand so That phase gave me an opportunity to come close to Him and taught me lots of valuable lessons (patience, unconditional love, how to love the people who really hate us etc;). Then God promised me of double blessings. Don’t think like me to get twin babies here. God fulfilled His promise in His own way. Means I delivered my first one  on Feb 2011 and in the same year I conceived my second one. As He promised, He fulfilled His will in our life.

By Feb,2015, my husband got a severe heart attack and was in ICU. Believe me, By His grace and support, I was  not even worried even a single second. Full time I was with my hubby and in hospital room we hold each other’s hand every day and night and prayed. I testify now that he cured only because of His wounds. This miracle helps both of us to close even near to God and taste His love.

By Nov 2016, my husband quit his job to takeover full time family care as my little son shown some development delays. With our God’s guidance and my husband’s care, He is now well doing in His studies. Please keep him in your prayers that His life should lead many people to taste our God’s love.
Even now  we are waiting for God’s will and guidance in my husband's career but believe me we are not worrying about this now. Because till now His grace is sufficient for my family and we believe Him that it will be sufficient throughout our life.

Kindly hold us in your prayers to lead our life in His presence and up to His will. 😀

Losing a baby.

Glory to God alone

'Umakaga thanae ayya naan uyir vazgiraen ayya (It's for you I live alone)
intha udalum ullam ellam anbar umakkaga thanae ayya (My soul, heart and everything belongs to you, my Lord)'
I love this song..... Whenever I feel I am left alone, and in desperate conditions, God always reminds me I live for Him alone. But it is
hard to live on those lines in this world. Anyone will agree with me. Most often when we are surrounded by trials, we often ask God, "Why did it happen to me, Lord? If God is in control, how could He let it happen to me?" But, often we see the present and forget about our future. We forget that God always has the best for us. When God molds, He is preparing a great treasure for us too.
The below is my testimony, though with pains and fear, I believe that God is in control and He always does what is good to me.

I got married in May 2012, and as everyone expects myself and my husband were longing for the good news in our house. We use to pray, "Lord, let everything be done in your perfect time alone". I know, God will do everything in His time as some man of God blessed us saying, "God will bless your generation". But that day, on April 1st, 2013, I was praying to God, "Lord you have promised me to bless me with a child. It's gonna be 1 yr now since my marriage. And nothing happened. What plans do you have in my life?" Whenever these questions arise in my mind, God asks me to wait. That whole week, God was speaking with me with the verses from I Samuel, where Hannah was praying to God and
as God promised, she is blessed with a child. I took it as confirmation and was praising God for hearing my prayers. His plans are always different. Also, He was always showing me the verse where Hannah promised God to dedicate her child - "And she made this vow: "O Lord of Heaven's Armies, if you will look upon my sorrow and answer my prayer and give me a son, then I will give him back to you, He will be yours for his entire lifetime, and as a sign that he has been dedicated to the Lord, his hair will never be cut" - I Samuel 1:11(NLT)".
This verse got deep-rooted in my mind and I understood what God was expecting from me. I surrendered myself and gave God a promise that my first-born was for your service, and shared the same with my husband.

Meanwhile, one man of God prophesied to my mom that I will get conceived that month. It was May 20, 2013. I was very tired and there were some changes in my mind and body and when we went to the doctor, she confirmed that I am carrying. I along with my husband was praising God for all He did in our lives. Days were running and I felt the spirit of God lying with my baby. I was sure that my child was a chosen one for God. And I also had a chance to meet a family with my friend who were about to travel to abroad. When we were in prayer I felt the Spirit of God and the brother who was praying for me said that he saw my womb glowing. What else will make a mother happy? I was happy that my son will become an ambassador for Christ. I was in clouds writing poems about my son and singing songs for him. To my surprise he was very active. Doctors were surprised seeing him so active in my womb.

October became the busiest month for me because of my brother's marriage. And after my brother's marriage some questions arose in my mind as if someone was asking it to me, "Will you give your son to me as promised now?" I was totally confused as I thought that voice to be my imagination. I just prayed, "Lord, I know nothing will stop my Son growing for you. I can feel it. Be with him, guide him and use him as you wish".
The next day was so awful for me. It was October 26. I didn't feel the movement of my baby and went to the doctor. She said she was not able to hear the heartbeat and I was asked to take scan immediately. I felt like God was doing something and this will be a miracle. I didn't lose my faith but I just couldn't understand what was going on. "The baby will be safe", this was the only thought running in my mind. I just started talking with God in my mind and asked my friend to send a prayer request to everyone.

But things were not as I expected. The scan report said that my baby's heartbeat stopped and the doctor asked me to get admitted in hospital and they were arranging to take my baby out. I just thought, "What on earth was happening and why was it happening to me?" My eyes flooded with tears. Many were praying for me and were giving hope to me. Till last minute, I believed that nothing would happen to my child and I surrendered totally to God. One of my friends, who prayed for me, said there are angels visiting me and something great will happen.

Doctors were surprised to see me sitting without pain and they tried to take my baby out that night. It was about 1.30 am on Oct 27. My baby was born. He was so cute, fully formed with lots of hair (as God showed me) but he was dead. I was uncontrollable. The doctors were not able to give reasons for my baby's death as they found me and my baby healthy. But everything happened for a purpose and according to His will alone.
One of my friends who prayed for my baby fervently said that she saw a boy angel taken into heaven and a sister sent me a message, "God has taken your first born for the heavenly choir and the rest will be yours". She doesn't even know about my promise to God and my friend too sent a same message.
Though I am into worldly pain, I was happy that God chose my child to be with Him. As job said, "God gives and takes away", I bless the one who gave me and took away my child. My friend, who came to visit me, said, "Don't ever question God for the things happened?"

Though it made me strong in Faith, sometimes, some thoughts often pondered into my mind disturbing me. But God knows our heart right.
I know a missionary who was working among terrorists in Kashmir. He often came in my dreams for the past one week and was trying to convey something to me. But I couldn't understand anything. I got a call on 14th November from an unknown number. To my surprise, it was the missionary. He lost my number somewhere and was trying to contact me for the past one week. Somehow, he got my number he called me. He said, "God wants me to tell you something". I got shocked and he continued saying, God wants to tell you that you have trained your son well. He sung well and God loves hearing his song in heaven". I said in a surprise," What? "He said, this God was urging me to tell you for the past one week and he also said the song which I usually sing when my baby was in my womb. The missionary, who spoke to me, didn't know anything happened here and he was saying "I don't know why God was pushing me so much to tell you this." I explained him everything happened here and said, "If someone who knows everything have called and said these, I will trust in God but there will be a chance for me to think that they are trying to console me, but now I can't doubt God at all right".

I praise God for choosing my son in His heavenly choir. I know it will be very hard for us to forget when we lose some one. But God has some plans in our life. When we are engulfed with sorrow and despair with the thoughts, "Where is God?" Despite personal stress and painful circumstances, we can be confident that God is sovereign and He is in control of our life-boats. When we walk through tough situations, and if we focus on the waves of difficult situations around us without faith in Jesus, we may despair and sink. But remember always, that God has some purpose in our life and His plans are always for our good and trust Him to walk in His faithfulness.

His peace always will be with us and I am sure that I will be meeting my child in heaven someday. Everything He did was for a purpose. It might be a testing time for us or God is preparing us for something greater.

I am thankful to everyone who prayed for my family in tears. It's not that our prayers were unanswered but God has a better plan for us is what I believe. Hoping to see you all soon.