Rescued from addiction, Transformed by grace

The moment I read one news I felt why I didn’t write this testimony so long. I’m a mom of two and went through a very tough situation exactly three years back. I cannot thank God for the mercy he has shown to our family and am alive now. 3yrs back, my 6 month old was very sick and getting better with treatments. 

My husband found Casino as his relaxing point from home. What started as fun for him turned out to be a tragedy for the family. I didn’t know he was frequently going to Casino after work and didn’t answer my calls after work. In 2 months time, it was a regular thing and never answered the calls even if it was 50-100 times. My in laws came to stay for few months and came to know about it but he wouldn’t listen to them as well. They went back and it still continued even worse. 

This went for days and days and I just sat crying day and night some days without cooking and showing my anger to the kids. With kids at home, and no one to take care of them, I couldn’t go and get him back from the casino if he didn’t return from work. I begged, cried, screamed, shouted and blackmailed. Nothing worked. In fact, it went worse once when I fought and he called up 911 and said I was threatening to kill the kids. The cops showed up and they said they couldn’t do anything about him going to casino as it was his personal choice and asked me to go my friends place. This was the day before Christmas and I drove to the airport without knowing where to go. Sat in the airport for 4 hrs with my little one crying for milk and I didn’t have anything to give. Then a guy approached me in the airport and I felt unsafe and drove back to home at 4 am to see my husband sleeping like nothing had happened. 

Our accounts were wiped out and all credit cards maxed out and even loaned money from his siblings and friends asking for some other reason. I couldn’t handle at this point and went to India and told my family that I was getting a divorce. I was scared if he would commit suicide when were gone too and used to call his friends and check if he came to work. There were days when he didn’t show up to work and his friends checked for him at home. My family told to give him a last chance for another month hoping he must have realized when we weren’t here with him. But when we came back, nothing had changed, the house was left in the same condition when I’d left to the point that I had to clean and vacuum to even let my kids on the floor to play.

  When I was almost at the verge of giving up, first wave of covid started and all casinos were locked. I felt all my PRAYERS were answered when all the casinos were closed not only for my family but for all the families affected just like me. Covid was truly a blessing for me. We even got covid during the second week of March and recovered at home. God changed my husbands mind and made him realize what he has been doing. We reconciled and got together in true trust and love and started working together to repay the debts forgetting the bitter past between us. 

I cannot thank God for all the goodness he has done in my life and this is the greatest of all! We as a family are still alive by HIS mighty grace! 

 The Lord is our only strong hold at all times. He has the right plan for you. If you are going through any tough situations this minute, just hang in there, the end may be so closer than you think.

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Testimony 

1. By the immense grace of God I got my second year distance education Psychology results.I have completed the course with a first class and I am a certified General Psychologist now. All glory to God .Please pray that God's plan be fulfilled In my life.

2.We went for an outing last week to a lake with only little wàter..neck level water for my 5yr old.Suddenly when all of didn't notice Priscilla went upside down and was struggling for breathe and my niece shouted her name and we then only noticed she lost balance and immediately my husband pulled her out..she had drank water and vomited.Thank God for His protection.

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Praise and Glory to Our Heavenly Father.. He leads us in green pasture and leadeth beside the still waters.. Amen. This year He healed my Husband, myself, my parents, my sister and her family and many of our near and dear ones from COVID. He helped me and my husband to take a drive to Iowa to meet his mom. He helped us be able host a few sister workers from our church in our home for a few days. He helped us with amazing guidance and helped us to walk in His plans. It is a blessing and Thank God for you wonderful sisters who keep reminding me of the walk carrying our cross in the path that Jesus walked. Praise and Glory to Him. Pray that His name be Glorified by our lives.

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When I read this message I wanted to cry. I wasn't going to say anything, because what we experienced was very new and a very sensitive thing. 

But I got up this morning with such a burden to share this. 

The past couple of years GOD has been working on my husband and me. God has been changing us and dealing with us and we have been enjoying immense spiritual growth and immense personal growth. We were able to do amazing ministry in our local church and around our house, soon the church elders started trying to incorporate us into the church leadership. 

One particular person in leadership did not like how I was being prophetic and started attacking us. To the point where some of those in leadership and then those in the congregation turned on us. It was literally like a mob situation. 

And that very same month. The people who were coming for prayer were talking about the affairs their spouse had in church or how the church wronged them. In a couple of months it was almost like I lost my safe space. (That was what I thought church was for me. Betrayed by those I was close with. And then having to try and navigate such information without prejudice.) 

By then COVID also shut down all the churches. I basically just resolved to online church. COVID amplified many domestic situations for so many people and when the church leadership didn't step in THE WAY I THOUGHT THEY HAD TOO,I couldn't accept it.  I stopped counceling people. I just wanted a private Christian life. (As stupid as it sounds now 😬) I just wanted no one to look at or question my relationship with GOD. I couldn't accept "imperfect" people talking about or ridiculing the most precious part of me. My relationship with GOD.  I just had to get over myself and deal with it..... but I didn't know how. I started asking GOD for anonymous ministries. For some time GOD also allowed it because I had to heal. Slowly HE started be deal with us and pruning us and change us and making us mature and teaching us to forgive and oh HE taught me humility! 😀. All people are like me, I had to stop looking at their cracks and learn to look at CHRIST in them be it in leadership or anywhere else.  Be it in church or in a different setting. I had to change my focus. Once I submitted it all completely to GOD and let HIM deal with us the way HE wanted, things changed. The pastor of our church came home one day and we were able to reconcile. GOD heard our prayers and in the midst of the lock down GOD enabled them to come to our house and sort out the issue. They actually came home and apologised (which I didn't expect.) It gave us a sense of closure and a renewed sense of how much as believers we need to do fellowship and stand by each other as the hands and feet of Christ on earth. 

Today we have moved to a new place, go to a new church and I know that this is the start of a new season for us as a family.  

And the local church that we have been planted here at, GOD has placed us here to learn and grow. I am looking forward to all that GOD has in store for us. ❤️😀🥰

I hope I did justice to what I was trying to express. Many of us have   been hurt at church. We either burry that hurt or carry it around. We don't deal with it in CHRIST. When we don't deal with it we become unable to help ourselves much less help others. To expect perfection in church is like expecting healthy people at a hospital. Some times we just need to get over ourselves and our mindsets and GOD can use us to do so much for our children, for so many like us and even for ourselves. Because HE is our strengths we can boast about our weaknesses.

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Praise the lord! All glory to God alone...

God helped me to become pregnant in July 2020 after 4.6 years of struggle inspite of PCOD and thyroid issues.. I was having high fever and bleeding on August 2020 ... And was struggling very badly during first trimester .. God helped me to reach TN from Delhi safely in midst of corona wave.... 

In March god blessed us with baby and I came across many struggles but god is all time good and good only.. 

GOD DOESN'T KNOW TO DO HARM TO US.. I was struggling with joining back to office and I got in to super duper hectic project.. I was working 14 hours on day 1 after my ML... I cried bitterly to the lord and he changed the things with in 24 hours.. the very next day I came to know th scope which I was mainly selected in the project is no more needed... 

And also I was not aware expecting good rating but to my surprise god blessed me with good rating also... 

My baby was suffering from measles and very heavy cold but god is good and he protected my baby also..

EACH DAY IS A GRACE FOR ME .. ALL GLORY TO JESUS ALONE.. HE IS THE ONE WHO CAN UNDERSTAND OUR HEART BEFORE WE SPEAK...

Still iam struggling to pray and meditate god's word .. please uphold me in ur prayers